Happy sunday evryone :)
Lately, banyak terfikir pasal my future. Stop it right there. Ni bkn future mcm typical hijabista yg asyik cakap future future which referring to bf/suami whatsoever, bukan tu.
Ni pasal my future. Apa yang jadi in 10-20 years later. Bila scroll facebook la yang buat diri ni rasa kecik sangat...... Sebab? Mostly my batchmates masa sekolah rendah semuanya da berjaya. Berjaya in a way macam ; dentist to be, doctor, engineer, architect & etc etc, semuanya meletup2. Tinggal la awak ni sorang-sorang merangkak baru habis diploma. Dalah tu, diploma biasa2 je, its not like I want to put down my own diploma tapi tahla. Bila da tengok macam tu, mula la diri ni motivate diri sendiri suruh cakap...
"Takpe, maybe you're next"
"Its okay, different people different luck"
"Allah ada rancangan utk setiap hambaNya, maybe aku punya belum sampai lagi"
Tapi, macam mana pun, hati ni menipu still kita sendiri faham la macamana rasa bila tengok kejayaan kawan. Its not that Im not happy for them, cemburu pun bukan. Cuma, tahla. Mixed feelings. Happy for them but at the same time sedih utk diri sendiri.
Your girl - E
